I was in the winter of my life and the men I met along the road were my only summer. At night I fell asleep with visions of myself, dancing and laughing and crying with them.
Three years down the line of being on this road tour, my memories of them were the only things that sustained me…and my only real happy times.
I was a singer.
Not a very popular one. I once had dreams of becoming a beautiful poet. But upon an unfortunate series of events, I saw those dreams dashed and divided like a million stars in the night sky that I wished on over and over again. Sparkling and broken. But I didn’t really mind it because I knew that it takes getting everything you ever wanted and then losing it to know what true freedom is.
When the people I used to know found out what I had been doing…how I had been living…they asked me why.
But there’s no use with talking to people who have a home. They have no idea what it’s like to seek safety in other people….for home to be wherever you lay your head.
I was always an unusual girl….my mother told me I had a Chameleon soul…no moral compass pointing to north…no fixed personality; just an inner decisiveness that was just wide and is wavering across the ocean. And if I said I didn’t plan for it to turn out this way I’d be lying.
Because I was born to be the other woman…I belonged to no-one…who belonged to everyone…who had nothing…who wanted everything.
With a fire for every experience and an obsession for freedom…and terrified of it to the point I couldn’t talk about it….that pushed me to a point of madness that dazzled and dizzied me….
Every night I used to pray that I’d find my people, and I finally did, on the open road. We had nothing to lose. Nothing to gain. Nothing we desired anymore, except to make our lives into a work of art.
Live fast. Die young. Be wild. And have fun.
I believe in the country America used to be. I believe in the person I want to become.
I believe in the freedom of the open road. And my motto is the same as ever - I believe in the kindness of strangers. And when I’m at war with myself, I ride. I just ride.
Who are you? Are you in touch with all of your darkest fantasies?
Have you created a life where you’re free to experience them?
I am fucking crazy, but I am free.